His See's uniform and his locker??

I never thought I was going to meet the guy of my dreams. I thought I would just be a loner all my life. My life was a total mess and was full of craziness, so I thought it was as good as it gets.

July 2004, I was unemployed and was desperate to find a job, so I went to the mall to apply at jobs and I was going to take any job that was offer to me. I remember applying at See's and the manager told me that they werent hiring but she would keep my application for the holidays. I honestly thought I was never going to hear from that job again.

Two days later I was offered the job at See's that changed my life upside down. The manager said that she need it someone on the spot so she thought of me.
 Only God knew how desperatly my soul was craying out for a change. I need it something new, something more than a job or money, I need it an angel to guide me through the right path, cause I was fucking up BIG TIME.

I was excited I got the job, but more that work was waiting for me at See's.  When I started working my mananger told me that she had forgotten to order me my uniform and that she didnt have an assign locker for me. She said that this had never happened and she apologized. Ofcourse in my synical mind I thought the job was starting pretty shitty, no uniform and no locker.

She told me that in the mean time there was an employee by the name of Matthew Hernandez (who I had never met or heard of) who had extra uniforms and space in his locker.  To be honest I was kind of grossed out I was gonna be wearing someone else's uniform, all I thought was body ordor and sweat but I was screwed, If I wanted the job I had to wear this mysterious guy's uniform.

A week passed and I had not gotten my uniform and I still had not met the guy I was wearing his clothes. That following thursday I was schedule 5-9 and I was assing to train with matthew. When I walked into the sales floor and saw him, something had changed. I saw him and instally I was intrigued by him.

 His smile enchanted me, his dark brown eyes were so captivating, and how confident he was had me completely interested. I had never felt like that so quickly. I surely thought it was nothing but a sugar high from all the samples they make you try before starting your shift.

After working that night with him, I couldnt get him out of my mind, I didnt even know if he was gay (well I kind of suspected) but you never really know until you ask or act upon it.

I couldnt wait to work with him again, and after a week of not seeing him at work, I was growing impatiently to see his smile. I wanted him to smile at me, I wanted to be enchanted once more.
When we finally work together, I was nervous because I wanted to know more about him and I was thinking, what if he's not gay?, or dating someone?.  My instinct told me to ask him what was he doing after his shift, again I thought I was on a sugar high. He told me that he had to take the bus home, that it was a 2 hour ride. I offered him a ride home and he gave me a look, like if I was insane. He wasnt used to get help from no one, so immediately he refuse. I told him it was no big deal, that I didnt mind. He finally accepted and instally I started panicking.
What was I thinking asking him to take him home?? he must think I'm a weirdo.

I remember we stopped for gas at the chevron station off baker st. and fairview and while pumping gas I asked him the typical question gay guys will ask someone to find out if he's gay or not, "so what clubs do you like to go to" his respond was "I dont go to clubs, I go to church" then I panic even more cause not only was I try to hit on a guy who was not gay but was a christian. I told him very confident that I was gay and he gave me a very uncomfortable look and he said "well I used to go to OZZ (gay club) a long time ago, but I stopped cause I go to church now" I knew then that homeboy was a closeted gay.

Before dropping him off we stopped at startbucks and we both order a strawberries and cream frap. It was summer time so we sat down outside, it was a very serene and beautiful night. We talked for a few hours about work, family and church. I was more intrigued by him, there was something about him that facinate me. At the end of the night we exchanged numbers.  It was the beggining of a beautiful friendship that lead me to fall inlove with him.

After almost 8 years of been with matthew, I look back and realize that there's no coincidences but destiny. Sometimes I wonder why I didnt meet him before, it would've saved me from alot of trouble, but now I understand that because we werent ready for each other. He came into my life, not late, not early but when I need it him the most. He's the angel I asked God to send me. My life is better because I met him and even though we had, had a bumpy road our love remains strong.


Thank you matthew for giving me the privilage to love you and to grow old with you.
Happy 29th Birthday.